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1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
yes

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
taken

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
whaddya mean

4: Ever been told "it's not you, it's me"?
yes

5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
refer to question 2

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
desmond

7: Do you want to be single?
nah

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
i was at work until 8, then spent the rest of the night in

9: How late did you stay up last night?
probably around 2

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
the realization itself is kind of fuzzy, actually.  it just kind of happened.

11: Last three things you had to drink?
water, milk, coffee

12: Have you pretended to like someone?
yes

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
yes

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
yes (partner)

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
yes, but thankfully i'm not dealing with that at the moment

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
No

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
Leaving for work

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
desmond

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
maybe, but i wouldn't bet on it

20: What would you name your future daughter?
Hazel's a nice name

21: Do you miss anyone?
stathis and phil

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
only if you're counting kisses on the cheek for family members

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
no

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
i don't feel the need to anymore, but i'm capable

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
no

26: Who did you last see in person?
desmond

27: Are you listening to music right now?
no, just keyboard clacking

28: What is something you currently want right now?
my back pain to stop

29: What is the last thing you said out loud?
"just for you" when desmond suggested i update this

30: How is your heart lately?
Not the best, but i have good support and i'm working on getting better

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
i'm not that edgy anymore

32: Are you wearing socks?
yes

33: What do people call you?
Sophia

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
i currently am

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
balancing work and school while trying to make time for the things and people that i love

36: Who did you last share a bed with?
desmond

37: Did you do something bad today?
probably, but i don't think i did anything that directly harmed anyone, so i'm gonna try to not think about it

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
today, i got hugs from desmond and josh both

39: Do you get stressed out easily?
yes

40: Will you sing today?
probably not

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn't?
yes.  i want to tell my dad to stop worrying about me because i'm almost an adult and i want to be able to take care of myself

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
desmond

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
no

44: What are you listening to right now?
the roundtable

45: What is wrong with you right now?
depression

46: What is on your wrists right now?
healing wounds

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you're wearing?
... hot topic

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
hot chocolate

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
No

50: Are you a good artist?
no

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
yes

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
in certain ways, but not really

53: Ever been on a golf cart?
no

54: Do you have trust issues?
not as much as i used to

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
yes. a few different people, but literally all night with gabe

56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
a few things

57: Do you use chap stick?
no

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
a few people

59: Do you have a little sister? 
yes

60: Have you ever been to New York?
no

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
yes

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
yes

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
possibly playing league

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
yes

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
not always, but usually. desmond.

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
yes

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
yes

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
with desmond

69: Will next Friday be a good one?
i have work, so hopefully it won't be too bad

Hello, I haven't written a journal since 2014, so I think we're about due for another one.  I was inactive for kind of a long time, sorry about that, and a lot has happened in the meanwhile.  I'm in high school now (I'm a sophomore) and I've quit band.  Life has been pretty bland, just a mix of school work, mental instability, and keeping up with my vibrant social life.  Oh, sorry, did I say social life?  I meant frequent anime watching and Harry Potter fangirling.  I'm an assistant for our Japanese Culture Club and I'm also part of the LGBTQA+ Club, so those things keep me busy.  Other than that, I guess not much has happened after all.  Huh.  Funny, you think in two years something interesting would have happened that I could talk about, but nope.  I suppose time does nothing to change me.  I'm even the same height I was before.  It's quite sad, really.  Well, I think that's all I have to report.  Talk to you later.
Delirium.

I'm  really greatful to you guys for looking at all of my shitty art and I don't think I thank you enough for it.  So this is for all 12 of my beautiful watchers.  A big thank you going to, , , , , , , , , , and .  Sorry Clark, you're a good friend, but you don't count.